Free falling

Step three is a free fall, they say. "When we truly accept our powerlessness over life, we discover that there is only falling." Rami Shapiro, Recovery. You learn that hitting rock bottom is just breaking through the ego and learning that you're falling, and there is no bottom. You just have to trust that there is something out there bigger than you that's going to control your fall.

That's a scary thought. To be free falling through life. But I suppose it's pretty true. But through step three, "We are given a peaceful knowledge that we are alright and our lives will proceed as they should, if we just keep letting go." Marya Hornbacher, Sane.

Every day I work on letting go. I'm not sure if I like the free falling metaphor, but perhaps the walking blindly through life. You can touch and feel things around you, and respond to them, but what's leading you is that inner something, that feeling that you're going in the right direction.

So how do you give it up to your HP? By remaining powerless and, according to Marya, just doing the next right thing.