Love, ah, love

My horoscope says today that I need to have a talk with the one I love and lay it all down. Adam is coming to pick me up in an hour. But I don't think I'm going to bridge that gap between my head and reality. I don't know how he feels about me, though we had a moment last night, and I don't think I want to know. I'm so afraid all he wants is to just be friends. I'd rather pretend, for the time being, and just let it all stand as it is.

Is that sick? I suppose pretending isn't the way to live your life, but it would hurt to think he just doesn't feel that way about me. I'd rather think of this as love, that maybe, just maybe, one day he'll feel the same about me.