Pop another pill

This is totally how I'm feeling. A little more Zyprexa, maybe convince the doc I need some Valium for the panic attacks. A little something to get me through this. I'm just feeling awful.

Well, that's not true. I didn't have an attack yesterday, and I actually left the house for meditation with Adam. I didn't freak out or anything. I feel... flat. I'm still agitated, but less so. My head is killing me, too. I wish I could just feel better.