Getting closer to your God

God, God, God. I know. This isn't a God blog, but it just seems like it lately. I'll try to complain about something else next. Or not be so damn positive.

A woman at the meeting this afternoon talked about how she moved to this area to be closer to her God. This area is beautiful - mountains and oceans and sunshine. There's lots to do year round outside, and wonderful cultural events all over the area. It really is a wonderful place to live.

When you look around, it's inspiring. God made all of this! (Or higher power, if you like.) These landscapes and creatures. One of my favorite sayings is, "And that's why God made ___." Like, "I need to stay awake. Well, that's why God made coffee." I use it liberally.

I'm so glad I came here. Sunshine is great for depression, and the moderate weather makes everyday an available day for doing something outdoors. There's never snow, not a lot of rain (to the dismay of the the reservoirs). It's just beautiful all the time. And God made it for all of us. He (she/it or as Cylindra says, doorknob) created this in order for us to have a sense of His being in our lives. So take advantage of it! Wherever you are it's summer (in the U.S.), so take a look around you and enjoy!

I love those crazy kids

Adam and I were walking along the boardwalk the other day, and this drunk, high as a kite guy looked at me and said, "You're gorgeous!"

Ok, so unsolicited compliments are fucking awesome. But it made me think. What kinds of things have I said when completely uninhibited by self control? What kind of hurtful or crazy things have I said when I was drunk or high? How do you go back and do amends when you were so drunk you blacked out?

I sure hope most of my comments were like his. I was always a happy drunk, until I blacked out, but then I only hated myself.

Hating yourself really sucks. Ever since I got sober I've loved myself a little more. My meds are finally working, and I'm happy, for once. I feel at peace in myself and with my decision to get sober. It may be one of the best decisions I've ever made. And now, I can make more decisions with a clear head and a higher power that will guide me.