Be all you can be

Be a nice girl, Michael says.

I am a nice girl. I go by a code of morals and rules that come from the Golden Rule and do no harm. I try to be good to people. But I've always tried to be the bad girl. The drunk, high, smoking, girl in black with tattoos and combat boots. I wanted multi-colored hair but couldn't do it because of work. I'm always dressed normally, and nicely, for work. In the past year it's all changed. I've lost the smoking, drinking, and getting high. I have almost all nice clothes and nothing skanky at all. I wear high heels.

I know none of this makes me a "bad" girl or a "good" girl, but I've always wanted to be a bad girl. It's not going to happen. I suppose I just need to be myself.